it’s 3am and i can’t sleep. i was lying in my bed when i suddenly got these flashbacks from few months ago when i was so happy and in love. and idk i just completely lost myself in them and started thinking how i’m still in love with him and how much i miss him and suddenly got really sad and now there’s no way i can fall asleep and ughhhhh heartbreak sucks so much idk

if anyone ever tells me they love me again i will first make them sign a long contract clarifying that they actually mean it, are aware of what they are saying and are not just using an exaggerated term for their feelings, also that they are fully sober and will not change their mind by the next day and go hit on the first random nice looking girl they see and only then i will consider believing it

what can i say i learn from experience

tbh i couldn’t care less about holidays and new years and all this stuff and i’m so tired of everyone making such a big deal out of it. i wish i could just like stay at home and waste time on tumblr and watch movies but instead of that all my friends expect me to go out all the time and party and celebrate and then ofc i can never say no to people and now i have so many plans i can hardly breathe ugh