Tag: personal

so remember that horrible ex that i used to always cry about in my personal posts on here for like a year and basically put me through hell?

so i just spoke to our mutual friend and he told me that my ex was asking about me and was saying that he wishes i’d still live in slovenia so that he could see me

now excuse me while i do my victory dance, for real tho YOU DONT KNOW HOW LONG I WAS WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT

OK SO BASICALLY THE GUY I LIKE SHOWED UP AT MY FLAT JUST NOW AND HE SAID AGAIN THAT HE REALLY LIKES ME AND WANTS TO SEE WHERE THIS GOES AND BASICALLY SAID HE WANTS TO BE WITH ME AND IT WAS ALL SO CUTE BUT GUYS IDK HOW DO I DO THIS WHOLE NORMAL DATING/RELATIONSHIP STUFF HELP ALL I’VE EVER DEALT WITH BEFORE WERE FUCKED UP MESSY RELATIONSHIPS AND HOOK UPS AND NOT THIS IM FREAKING OUT (INCASE ITS NOT OBVIOUS)

ok so yesterday night i was with this guy i like and he was editing something on his laptop and i was being an attention seeker so i was criticizing everything he did and then when he finally got annoyed, he said “so what do you want me to do then???” and i was a bit drunk so i just started laughing and said: “me”

and thats the story of how i ended up telling my crush that i like him

why is it that when i slept with a guy whom i actually liked and wanted to be with, he never called and then blew me off

and when i sleep with someone just like a hook up and want to keep it a one night thing, i cant seem to get rid of him

ok so me and my flatmate got really drunk tonight and decided to break into my former crush’s flat (bc he’s our neighbour) and steal all of their chairs as a revenge for him being an asshole to me and i was carrying like 5 chairs while she was opening the doors for me, but we were really loud because we were drunk so basically we heard someone walking down the stairs all the sudden (bc we obviously woke them up) and my flatmate just ran away into our flat – while i couldn’t because i was carrying a bunch of chairs AND OUT OF 12 PEOPLE THAT LIVE IN THAT FLAT IT HAD TO BE MY CRUSH THAT WE WOKE UP so he came downstairs and he just saw me in the middle of their living room, carrying chairs and he was just like “maja what the actual fuck????” and i was literally just like “I SWEAR IM NOT CRAZY EVEN THOUGH I SEEM LIKE IT” and ran away omg it was one of the most embarrassing moments ever

last night i was awake pretty much the whole night writing my lab report, i took a 2 hour nap between 4-6 am and then stayed awake all the way until 1pm again. then i finally went to sleep, slept the whole afternoon until like 7.30 pm or something like that and now i’m wide awake again and will probably be awake the whole night. not to mention that this is not even a one time thing but it has started turning into a habit.

sometimes i get worried about myself

ok so basically i made this male friend at uni and since the start our relationship was kind of weird, meaning that we somehow really clicked and were kind of into each other and a few months ago we once kissed when i was drunk, but that was when i had a thing with my former crush still, so i turned him down not in the best way possible, so after that it was kind of awkward.

but now we decided to have a ‘fresh start’ and we get along so well that it’s crazy and it’s the most obvious thing that we have crushes on each other and he’s not really the most attractive guy but he makes me laugh so much and he has the best personality even though he sometimes purposely tries to be a jerk and we ‘argue’ all the time and like pretend that we’re fighting just so we get an excuse to touch each other so in the end we end up awkwardly holding hands or hugging and for some reason i’m so attracted to him it’s crazy, i don’t even know and also the sexual tension omg sometimes i need to literally hold back not to just make out with him because i told myself that since im not sure what i want, i mean it might just be because im lonely, i’ll just wait for him if he makes a move on me again and actually asks me out, but he makes me feel things like butterflies and cheesy stuff like that and i do not like that because the last thing i want is develop feelings for a boy right now. but idk it’s all really cute and i can’t help myself and ahh idk i just thought i would share this with you guys.