im drunk – darknesstohislight

i hate it when i open up to people about how my dad abandoned me when i was a kid and how that affected me and they are like “yeah but you were really young so you barely remember it and you have a great step-dad it doesn’t count” like shut the fuck up you don’t know what it’s like to spend your whole childhood waiting for your dad to show up and then when he doesnt, wondering why the fuck are you not good enough for him to love you like he loves his other kids and waiting every single birthday for him to write you but he never does and then listening to your mum excusing him how “its not that he doesnt love you he’s just bad at expressing it” just because she’s trying to protect you from being hurt, if you havent been through the same thing stfu and dont tell me how i am or how i am not supposed to feel