so i found out today that my relationship with the guy at uni that i was seeing 2 months ago didn’t work out because his friends were telling him how he is not a relationship person, how he is just going to hurt me and how we probably don’t like each other enough (which is not true) for it to be worth the struggle so it’s better to just end it. i know he’s been struggling with these insecurities himself, but i thought he was overcoming them, so for the past 2 months i’ve been wondering why he had dumped me and now knowing one of the main reasons – i can’t decide what makes me sadder; the fact that it fell apart because of something so stupid as his friends’ bullshit comments or the fact that he listened and believed them.
for my part i liked that boy so much that i still can’t believe how i managed to develop so many feelings for him in such a short time and i know that even though now he claims that he never cared about me, at one point he felt the same and i know i made him happy. i’m slowly realizing that things are really over between us this time and that we won’t get back together like we did before and i’m trying my best to get over it because after 2 months it’s stupid that i’m still sad about something that wasn’t even a serious relationship, but it just makes me so angry and frustrated because i know that what we had was really good for both of us, making us both happy and had so much potential and he threw it all away because of his insecurities instead of at least giving it a try.
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