Do you have any friends in that lecture? Would it be possible for them to help you out of the room, place you somewhere safe and then get you some food? Also, do you have access to water? It can help immensely to just sip on some! If not, wait for the other students to leave the room, and then ask your teacher for some help.

hey anon thanks a lot for your concern, i only saw this message now and i was fine in the end but i really appreciate this 🙂

I’m sorry to hear about your break up, I know everything feels like shit right now but you’ll be okay I promise, and to be honest, your boyfriend seems like a douche, sorry to say that, but you deserve so much better. Again, I’m really sorry, I hope you feel better soon

sorry for late reply i wasn’t online for a couple of days. thank you for this lovely message, i know eventually i’ll be fine but right now it feels shit and i feel like i don’t have enough energy to go through the painful moving on phase. anyway thanks for nice wishes xx

Hey I hope ur okay!! I think you should tell your boyfriend about your worries again when you’re sober so that he knows these are serious worries (maybe u have idk!). Just because it’s your mental illness talking, doesn’t mean ur thoughts/feelings are not valid! If he doesn’t take them seriously that isn’t right! It’s hard to be honest about feelings but if you keep it bottled up you’ll make yourself feel even worse and you deserve to be happy! Hope things get better soon xoxo

hi anon, thank you for this message xx

the thing is i have a problem talking to him about it, he knows i’m dealing with some issues and he kinda knows ive been going to therapy but he’s not fully aware of my mental health problems and even though i know talking to him about it would probably be the healthy thing to do i try to keep all of it away from him as much as i can because i don’t want to put pressure on him or him thinking thats something’s wrong with me, that’s why i feel even worse when i get a panic attack in front of him. he’s the type of a person that really has his shit together and i’m the opposite.

but thanks youre really nice and this means a lot 

Why did you choose psychology then if you hate it so much?

hi anon!

bc when i was like 14 i got this idea that i want to do psychology when im older and i was obsessing about it for years. also i had a good psychology teacher for my a-levels who made it fun and interesting. 

however, a year ago i started changing my mind that i would much rather do international relations at uni & that i don’t actually want to do anything with psychology later, but my parents and everyone were encouraging me to do psychology since i’ve been determined to study it for years and though that the whole interest in international relations is just a phase or something. also there was also always an argument that psychology is a useful degree on many fields so even i change my mind i can still do something else after uni. not to mention that i had my personal statement ready already and i was just kind of anxious about changing my mind about the course in the last minute. but tbh i  already started out uni not really being interested in psychology and hoping that i will change my mind – which i dont think was really the best start. 

i mean i do find psychology interesting and i still like it but it’s just not something that i want to dedicate all my time to. also there’s sooo much statistics and research methods and other non-fun/interesting stuff that i need to do with it and i just don’t think it’s worth it if i don’t really want to do it anyway.

also this year i took international relations as an optional module together with all the psychology stuff & i actually really like it and enjoy it and i’m also better at it because i’m more motivated to do it. so even if i have to retake the first year because i change my course, at least i will know it’s to something i enjoy studying. thinking back i wish i would just trust my instincts and not listen to others who told me to do psychology.

sorry this was probably a longer answer than you expected, but once i start i can’t stop haha

Hey, I just wanted to drop by to send you some love, because I know you’ve been through some not-the-best times lately and you seem to post less, so I just hope you’re doing okay <3 And just so you know, your blog is one of my favourites! :)

dear anon, this is probably one of the loveliest messages i’ve ever got ♥

i’m fine, or at least i will be, so don’t worry about me and i know i post maybe a little less but don’t worry i’m here, i’m just mostly quietly liking stuff 😀

and i’m glad you like my blog & thank you so much, i’m happy to have followers like you ♥♥