i can feel myself getting depressed again and everything was going so perfectly for me a month ago which just makes it worse. and i’ve been taking out on my boyfriend, like i would just wake up and start crying “for no reason” and then i can’t tell him what’s wrong and i feel like thats making things weird between us and he means the world to me so it just makes me feel worse. and it got to the point that i’ve irrationally convinced myself that he secretly can’t stand me and doesn’t want me around anymore and even though everyone is convincing me i’m being crazy and irrational i can’t help myself but just be miserable and anxious all the time i’ve been crying every day for the past week and a half and i’m just making things worse