i’m in a really bad mood because i’ve had a pretty bad freshers flu for a week now, which prevents me from doing anything fun and i also missed a bunch of lectures because of it so i have a ton of work to catch up on. also i kind of lost motivation to hang out with my flatmates and new friends here and tbh they all tend to kind of annoy me lately – idk they are all nice and all but i’m just feeling pretty antisocial and also my self-esteem rn is super low also bc i haven’t been to the gym in like 3 weeks which always makes me super insecure and not like how i look.

also because of not having fun here atm, i started missing home and all my old friends which just makes it worse and i’ve been feeling really nostalgic about my life back in slovenia which is something i don’t want to feel because honestly i was really unhappy for the past year and i’m finally getting a fresh start so why would i feel nostalgic about it? not to mention that it makes me miss people that i shouldn’t even think about (i think it’s pretty obvious who i mean by that) which just makes me even more sad and i just get annoyed with myself and idk i’ve just had a pretty shitty past few days