so yesterday i met with only few friends to go out with for the last time before i leave and even though i promised myself i wouldn’t i also called up my ex to see me (actually i’m pretty sure at this point ‘ex’ is not the right thing to call him, but it’s like how do you refer to a person with whom you’re in a continuous on-and-off thing for over a year? so let’s just stick to ex)

he was actually really excited when i called him and he promised me he’d come and tbh i only more or less invited other people as an excuse so i can see him so i was really happy and he was like “can’t wait to see you”

but then guess who didn’t show up in the end? -.- and firstly he actually just called another friend that he can’t come (i didn’t even bother asking why) and i was pretty annoyed but it’s not like it was completely unexpected from him to ditch in the last moment

and then he actually called me and he was apologising like crazy, but still without any real reason why he didn’t come and he was like “but i was so happy you called and it means so much to me that you wanted to see me" and blabla cheesy bullshit… like seriously? if it meant so much to him that i called him he might have as well showed up? -.- 

and then i also had to promise him that he will see me when i come back to visit and december, yeah right i just can’t wait to be rejected and disappointed again.

so that’s it now and it’s basically over between us for real now, which i guess is a good thing? so no more dumb personal text posts about him at least until december when i come back and shit goes down again