my ex is posting pictures with his new girlfriend (actually she’s not his girlfriend but hes just acting like she is?? i mean idk what she is exactly but they have something it doesnt matter) on facebook and they are all over my news feed and i dont even really care, i mean im not jealous but at the same time idk like my ego is hurt..?? idk i mean i imagine all our mutual friends looking at the pictures and think how i must feel shit at the moment – even though i dont? and idk its like i spent almost a year trying sooo hard to make things work with us and going through so much shit and then she comes along and he’s all over her in a moment, and the thought of others being aware of that is shitty

(but tbh im not really buying their relationship, i mean i might just be in denial but he’s done this before and then he always came back to me, i mean not that i want him back but i still think that will happen eventually)