It’s my 19th birthday this week and since I was feeling pretty shit lately, I said I’m not going to have a party or anything this year, but that I just want to see my best friend and maybe few other close friends and go out, just to chill a little. A lot of my friends said no though, because they are not here this weekend/whatever/whatever, but I didn’t really care because the main point for me was to be with my best friend and we arranged to go out for my birthday already MONTHS ago. 

And then, I checked with her if the plan is still on, just in case, and all she said was “Oh I’m sorry I can’t do it tomorrow.” And it’s just like what the fuck, it’s my fucking birthday and that was literally the ONLY thing I was looking forward to it and actually really wanted. Just to go chill out for a little and ughhhhgghhh, I’m so fucking pissed. And what pisses me off even more that in our friendship, like I can never actually get pissed with her, idk it just seems really weird to me, so all I can do is just show her that I’m not very happy and kind of disappointed, whereas if the roles were reverse she would probably hunt me down and idk murder me -_-

ANDD ughhhghh I was just really really looking foward to this and had really shit time lately but that kind of kept me up & I didn’t really see her much lately and ughhghhhg my birthday is going to suck now & it’s supposed to be my day & I’m supposed to enjoy it & now I guess I’ll just spend the night on tumblr, feeling sorry for myself, I’m so angry -____-